Exiled

Ok so I don't watch the MTV show... ok truth be told I watched 2 of them but this post isn't about some MTV show. Its about something my bf said to me 2 weeks ago that I just remembered today... and I remembered it because I was labelling previous posts in preparation for publicizing my blog. I labelled my first post "Compassion" and this is what I remembered....

Scene: BF and I walking into Xmas Tree Shop on a FREEZING Saturday...
Me: I think I should volunteer or something
BF: Huh?
Me: Well you know, yesterday it was so freaking cold out and I had to wait for the bus an extra 30 minutes due to traffic and an accident and I didn't have my scarf... just gloves and it was so freaking cold.
BF interrupting: And you had your coat
Me: Um yeah obviously. Anyway I seriously thought I'd have frostbite when I finally got home. And I didn't have my cell so I couldn't call you and it was so brutal.
Sidenote: Due to job change, I didn't have a cell for awhile and it was so annoying. But back to compassion
BF: Yeah so what does this have to do with volunteering?
Me: Yeah well I was thinking about how I was that cold but I was only out there for 30 minutes. Imagine homeless people. I don't know. I think I should volunteer at a soup kitchen or handing out blankets.

Its quiet for a few minutes... ok seconds... if it had been minutes I would have started talking again

BF: Um hun, don't take this the wrong way but I think you are meant to help people from afar.
Me: What does that mean? You think I can't be compassionate.
BF: Remember when we were in NY and you could smell every odor for blocks before me and you kept complaining about it.
Me: Yeah it was disgusting,I have a very sensitive nose.
BF: And remember how you get uncomfy if dirty people are near you
Me: Um yeah, it grosses me out. I mean come on, shower already
BF: Yeah homeless people don't have a place to shower and will probably smell. You won't last very long at all.

Quiet again...

Me: Yeah but remember the time after the kickball game when I took all the leftover food (company ordered for like 200 and 20 played) and I brought it to the homeless people by the Garden because a shelter wouldn't take it bc it was already opened
BF: Yes that was very nice of you and I know you care but you couldn't deal with any smells.
Me: But I care, I want to help.
BF: I know you do and you can. Fundraise, spread the word, collect goods, donate money, volunteer with kids- you love that stuff. But a soup kitchen, I think not.

Silence again...

Me: So I probably wouldn't last on that MTV show Exiled either
BF: Remember when they ate bugs and killed chickens

Silence as I vomit in my mouth

Me: Yeah I'll find a different way to help out

Moral of the story: I do care and everyone can help in their own way but I am a DQ and my bf knows me too well... I would have been grossed out by even the slightest smell and then felt bad for being grossed out and I know some will say that makes me a bitch but I counter with this: You try living with my sensitive nose AND trust me it is THAT sensitive and you wouldn't last either.

Snow, snow go away

So I'm sitting inside this am because I HATE the cold. I'm always freezing so going outside in the snow just isn't one of my favorite things. In fact, while the idea of global warming saddens me and I would definitely want my future children to see snow; at least once in their lives... I could definitely live without it. I might even secretly be happy if it never snowed in MA again - ever!

I know some of you will think that makes me terrible and others will say why do you live here then? Well the short answer is that I was raised here, my family lives here (or in nearby states; also with snow) and I can't imagine not being near my family (but far enough away to escape!).

Anyway, I'm getting off topic. As I'm sitting inside where its super toasty, I'm checking out my favorite sites: perezhilton, facebook and for local updates, I like boston.com. On boston.com, I'm automatically drawn to a video on The One Thing you cannot live without. Before I even watch the video... my mind is spinning. I couldn't decide on just ONE... I was the child who when given 3 wishes would always use the first to wish for more wishes and when the other person would say "you can't wish for more wishes, its a rule" I would reply "then I wish for the rule to be abolished and my second wish is for unlimited wishes" or even better "then I wish to be the queen of all wish granting and my second wish is for unlimited wishes!". See a trend... I have to get it my way and not at BK but with everything.

I'm curious what can't you live without? And more importantly, could you really pick JUST ONE?? Think about the question before you watch the video...


SPOILER ALERT!!!!
After watching the video, I felt badly. The Queen of Drama Queens has been put in place.. a little. A homeless man said he couldn't live without reading. My only saving grace, so I don't seem as big a B, is that my list didn't include one of my coach bags (I have multiple) or my fancy car or Gucci eyeglasses. But I still have all those things on top of a warm, cozy home and a stable job (in fact, I just got a new job) and of course I have my health. I'm feeling like I should be more thankful and appreciate my life.... maybe this blog will remind you to stop and look around once in awhile - because the video by itself is honestly not good; not enough for impact anyway..... and yes I know I'm a bit of a B (just not a big one)