ike a cut from childhood that leaves a scar... the pain goes away but that part of your skin is never the same again.

So taking my own advice... here are 10 things about me that are true and I didn't reread it or rewrite it so I apologize in advance for any grammer or spelling issues but not for the honesty.


This is me, accept me for who I am... it took me years to do that but I do now!

1. 100 calorie bags of kettlecorn popcorn has been my saving grace since joining ww

2. I think the fact that the oldest Duggar son married without even kissing is a travesty. I will probably have posts dedicated to this in the future and the conversation that RJ and I had while watching the wedding special, yes we watched it.

3. I think growing up is so scary because its like you are suppose to stop dreaming. Stop dreaming of what you want to be, who you want to date, marry etc. So every now and then to fight it, I still daydream about a different life and I think thats ok. It frequently involves meeting Kenny Chesney or Bradley Cooper or someone else and running off... or being incredibly wealthy and being able to stay home to raise my children.

4. I sometimes wonder if my Dad and I will ever repair our relationship and it makes me so mad at him that he ever let it break in the first place. When your dad dissapoints you, it makes it hard to believe in anything. You look up to your dad... he is the kind of man who can do no wrong. I know that doesn't exist in reality but I wanted my dad to stay like that. My Dad was always to me like Bruce Willis in the scene in Armeggedon when he saves the world to give his daughter happiness. Then life happened, divorce occurred, your Dad doesn't seem to be the superhero you thought he was and it makes you say... if my Dad can dissapoint me and hurt me like this, will any guy ever not hurt me? I mean this was the man who picked me up from elementary school when my halloween costume started falling apart (I was a mummy) and didn't complain about it but rather took me to lunch and to hang out at his work. Now he was a jerk and that sucks. Eventually you realize your Dad was probably hurting too but the break in the relationship is like a cut from childhood that leaves a scar... the pain goes away but that part of your skin is never the same again.

5. I think if my parents had not gotten divorced, my mom and I wouldn't be as close.

6. I believe in the right to choose. I could never vote for a presidential candidate (and I haven't) who could empower the Supreme Court to overrule this right. I think its a very difficult decision and until we walk in someone else's shoes, we can't make that decision for them. I lost all faith in my childhood church when they put up a black tombstone and started teaching my 1st grade class (I was teaching) to pray that mommy's don't hurt their babies. There's a line and the church crossed it.

7. I was surprised to hear that my sister who had a child in her teens has never smoked pot... I have. But no other drugs and I didn't do it very often... highschool a few times and right after college like twice.

8. I have always considered myself the perfect daughter/granddaughter/neice. I'm not allowed to screw up, if that makes sense. I'm suppose to follow the path and not ruffle feathers. Do everything in the right order. I thought I might get disowned the one time I broke off the path (and in the process broke up with my then to be future husband). But they all accepted it, no one in my family talked about it, but they accepted it in silence.

9. I use to daydream that instead of just taking a detour off the path, I actually lept off it. In that I daydream I had run away. Got in my car and just drove without telling anyone and started a new life in the middle of nowhere.. preferably where country music is very popular. Now I'm happy that I didn't because I love where my life has ended up.

10. In junior high a boy accidentally spit in my hair. Well I assume it was an accident to hit me as he apologized on his own but he did spit off the stairwell on purpose. To make it worse, he was the cutest boy in 8th grade and his locker was 2 down from mine so it was an endless reminder.


hmmm interesting 10 items and very random... like was there even an outline in my head for this? Based on reading it now, I don't think so.